If you love me, great.
If you hate me, whatever.



| aidie |
| alyy |
| aminah |
| ann |
| anna |
| bal |
| cindy |
| debbie |
| ebrahim |
| eunice |
| fah |
| fazrina |
| glam |
| ida |
| isabel |
| jamilah |
| karen |
| keenan |
| laypeng |
| melvin |
| natasha |
| nazirah |
| nisak |
| raihanah |
| rudy |
| salmah |
| sham |
| shams |
| sharon |
| suhaida |
| syai |
| tami |
| yusman |
| yuwen |
| zakk |
| zhenyi |
| zhirong |






December 2009
January 2010
February 2010
March 2010
April 2010
May 2010
June 2010
July 2010

Sometimes the best cure for a tearing heart is not through watching hours of drama.
Neither is it through a pint of icecream (though I still love you Ben & Jerry).
Most of the time, it's simply by blurting it out to someone.
And if there's nobody around, cover your mouth with a pillow and scream.

Butyeahh, in my world we don't do that.
In my world, we keep our mouth shut and we let the rest guide us in what to do.

No, not that I'm making the world judge or control me.
I'm simply letting the world take over, cos I'm fucken tired managing it.
I'm sick of pretending that I can handle everything, cos truthfully I CANT.
I suck, in a justin bieber way.
YES, YOU GET WHAT I MEAN.
I try so hard to make people like me, but I guess I have to lose one way or another.



Kay...
There's no easier way telling this.
But I feel that I have to, since I know my friends would eventually read this and (hopefully) understand.
Neil and I.......





Well, I guess you can say we temporarily broke up.....









As painful as it is seeing myself type those words together, it's true.
It happened a week ago, and I was too embarrassed to tell you guys.
Maybe because we've always been that "perfect relationship" some of you look up to.
Telling me how compatible we are. How we were so meant for each other.
Well...all of those theories are put on hold now.
I ain't expecting him to come back so soon either, likewise am I ready to turn around.
All I need now are my friends.
I'm telling this here because it's too hard for me to tell you guys upfront.
I was planning to keep it till it's over, but I feel that y'all deserve to know what's happening.
Just so you know, I can't take pity talks and long discussions about how "all of this would work out in the end".
Soyeahh, you guys can leave that part out.
When you see me smile or hear me laugh...just be happy for me.
No questions asked.

Andyeahh, I guess it would help if a friend or two would keep me from breaking down.
Being without the same man for a year wouldn't be easy for a few days.
If I decide to walk away, hold me.
If I say that I feel great, look at me and show me that you know I don't.
If I hallucinate for awhile, slap me.
Kay not really, if you slap me I'll slap you back. ;]




I guess what I'm asking here is just pretend you're happy for me.
As if you never knew I posted this up.
Refrain from speaking his name or asking me how he is.
The last thing I need is a reason to think about him.

I guess this song doesn't apply anymore.
Ohwell, atleast it used to mean something to me.




Anyway...yeah.
I guess that's it.
I'm sorry if I update such a post after 3weeks being gone.

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