If you love me, great.
If you hate me, whatever.



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I just thought this song would suit this post. HAHA. ;]

I'm so over grovelling over him.
It's never healthy, considering I haven't been treating myself well this past week.
Since he wants me to be strong, I'll claim to be.
Wellyeah, I'm still working on it here and there.

Nevertheless, the pain has somehow lessen today.
I guess after crying my heart out to him a few days ago, I've realised how badly I've rotated my world around him.
I've been overly dependent on him that I failed to see that I can stand with my own two feet.
I guess this was the message he was trying to send? I really don't know.
What I know now is that...I can live being alone and independent.

I'm not saying that I like the idea of not having a boyfriend.
I do.....always.
Maybe I'm just starting to realise that being less dependent is not so hard after all.
I've moved on to a more if-you-need-me-then-i'm-here-if-not-i'm-out kind of person.
It's a big step I decided to make considering that's not really me.
I mean I have to admit, I want to be beside him through everything he goes through.
But I guess it's too much to ask from anyone.

Andyeah, who says I can't be happy with other people?
I have awesome friends who makes me feel how awesome I am to have them everyday.
My family loves me and so does my adorable and loving dog, Chester.
I guess I needed Neil to be with me all the time because I only wanted to feel secure.
I wanted to feel like a hug would just embrace me anytime I get enshrouded by fears.
Butyeah, who also says I can't tuck myself to sleep? ;]

I used to think I can't do all these things alone.
But you know what? I'm pretty sure I can now. ;]
I feel stronger and more independent now as ever.
And I think I can totally do this, just you wait and see.
A new me has been born.


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